My father, Stephen Francis (Steve) Chadwick, lived a beautiful life and was hopefully taken completely by surprise by death while he was engaged in one of his favorite activities , tending his roses, just days before his 92nd birthday on March 13th, 2020. One moment he was enjoying an early Spring wander around his personal heaven, a large rolling wooded lot along the Rappahanac river in his chosen home of Fredericksburg VA. The next in Heaven. Which I always imagine looks a lot like our own heaven on Earth. And then I imagine that while he looked around thinking, “something is a little different here”, along came Jesus to welcome him home. Daddy did not really identify as a Christian and in his later years was a little bit quarrelly on the subject of faith. My friend Ann said, “won’t he be surprised when he gets to Heaven and meets Jesus!”. I loved that thought! He was born a Catholic boy in East Orange, New Jersey and his family saw to his early rites of passage in the way of that church. He once told me he thought himself more of a Buddhist. He was also a Pisces. I think all these thin combined made him a robust, well-rounded character balancing healthy physicality, intelligence and a spiritual restfulness. He had a great sense of humor, enjoyed working with his hands as well as his mind, loved to be outdoors and delving in nature. I imagine Jesus would like him very much.
Let me tell you a little more about the man and his life. He was born to Steve and Rose Chadwick. Working class Polish-American Catholics in East Orange, NJ. His first born brother, also named Steve, died as a baby. Next came Dad, then Audrey, Marilyn and just when they thought their baby-having season was over, along came little Judy. Dad loved sports and grew up playing football and basketball, He, along with his Dad was a fishing fanatic. He said he and his friends used to swim in the Hudson River. In High School he was taught to dance by his favorite Aunt Hank and became a really fine dancer. He joined the army after high school and while serving in the South, met Momma on a blind double date. They found they danced so well together that they switched partners, eventually married and after short spell living in NJ, he and Momma came to Columbia, SC for Dad’s undergraduate and Master’s studies in Chemical Engineering at the University of SC. From there he was hired as an engineer by DuPont, where he pursued a life long career in textile fibers starting at the Camden plant. Steve and “Blu” had a tumultuous, mismatched life together raising me and my brother, somewhat. When that marriage ended, he met and married the love of his life, Ruth Abbacassis while he was working for DuPont in Hamm, West Germany. They lived in Seaford, DE for several years after he was transferred back to the US. They traveled a good bit and when they discovered the Fredericksburg community in VA they felt it would be a perfect fit for their retirement. That marriage and the life they carved out in their 37 years together was the best and most important thing in the World to him.
Whatever my Dad put his hands to, he did well. He loved to build things, fix things, grow things. He cooked joyfully. He took care of his body, proudly remaining more fit that most people half his age even in his great 90’s. I wish I had shared more time with him in that life, but in the way of blended families, it seemed too hard for both of us at the time.
On that last afternoon, while he was visiting his roses, an unfortunate unlicensed driver lost control of the SUV she was unlawfully driving at too high a speed, crashing through his iron and brick gate, striking him in his own garden. They told me he left the World instantly. I hope so. When my brother called to tell me Dad had been killed he said, “It’s really bad Sissy….”. I was driving and somehow I got to my Son’s house and hysterically told him. I still can’t really think about it. I can’t imagine how Ruth lived through it. I somehow got home and called Ruth. She told me how Dad loved me so much. Then she got angry at me when I tried to talk to her about what would come next. A service? How would she cope until we could make plans to get there? She would cope fine and she didn’t need anything from us. That was the last time we have spoken. A couple of days later I served at a funeral dinner for a neighbor and imagined it was Dad’s. The next week the World shut down with the spread of COVID 19. There was no service, no scattering of ashes, no gathering over food and memories. And no obituary. Her grandson called a couple of times. And a lawyer about the wrongful death hearing. My husband John did find the death notice posted in the mortuary which handled his cremation.
In the several years since my Dad so abruptly left this World for the next, this World has changed so much. And I have changed right along with it. But, the sweet memories I have of my father have become so much more important to me than those differences we had and those occasions when we were a disappointment to each other. And there have been so many times I have wished I could call him, or better yet, sit with him in one of his favorite places. I wish that this time when we talked I could listen in a more open and less defensive way. So. For now, I have memories. The things he taught me. And the hope that one day we will meet again and I will receive the gift of some of the time and wisdom of my father that I missed in this life. Bye Dad, until we can be together in that better World. Amen. Amen. Amen.